being left behind pains...it stings...


it had been all those months ago...i know i shouldn't have, but i did...something got the better of me...and now here i stand, along in the company of my real friends...but still, alone, without you by my side...


i know this shouldn't be, but i still think of you...and i still care...and im cursed, because despite of what you did, despite of what you are, despite it all, i still, and really do love you.


i have only said this to a couple of friends, and i dont have the guts to say this you. My dear, treasured, precious friend, I'd rather have you in my life as a friend no matter how much i love then forever lose you.

THE TRIGGER
Plannig for the future is great, especially if it includes the both of us. Too bad, they are never going to happen. And what's worse is when someone tells their story, exactly the way we planned it.


I miss you. And think of you. I, sort of regret what I did. Farewell to all those plans. Farewell to all those super friendship bonding moments. Farewell to all those close ties. Farewell to your family who had been dear to me. Farewell travellijg to all those places with you. And Farewell to the short friendship that we shared, eventhough now I am not sure if it had been real.

I might begin to despite stories of boy-girl best friends, girl loves boy and the likes. It only reminds me of what we never had.


REALITY
still back to the basic SO WHAT???


then add up : SNAP OUT OF IT.

I see him there, I look up. He was looking through mad. Those mad burning eyes really to rip my head of.

SO WHAT???

Im headed the succesful path, to where are you?